This isn't for the faint of heart. I'm too disturbed to think clearly, but I will do my best to tone it down.
So many things have happened and happened, and will continue to happen, I am sure.
But right now- there is something entirely troubling on my mind. I stumbled upon something on a friend's computer. I didn't want to, didn't mean to, doesn't even matter who the friend is. All that matters is that this world we are living in is filled with sickness.
If you are even the tiniest bit faint, you may not want to continue.
An old site popped up in the search bar and I accidentally clicked it instead of my search. It was truly the singularly most disturbing thing I have seen in a while. After seeing the beginning of a video of rape porn, which I quickly turned off, I started to research. How deep can this sickness run? Apparently, very deep.
There are multiple fantasy rape porn sites. Just the idea that people fantasize about raping is bothersome enough. But whats worse, is that real rapists have the audacity to film their rapes and post the videos online. There are youtube sites for porn, as is not the least surprising. But a version of that specifically for rape porn? And with videos posted proudly proclaiming "real rape!" Showing bloody images of poor young girls being bound, gagged and tortured, clearly against their will? Men forcing knives into them? There was even a "Dexter-esque" one, using the seran wrap idea to keep the area clean, though the girl was not left that way. How kind of you, asshole, to clean up after the mess you forced someone else to make. She was drugged, then stripped, than tied up in chains, beaten till bloodied, then raped with a knife. All the while someone was holding a video camera and recording with as sick a hunger as the man doing it. It was the fear in her eyes, then the pain that got to me.
I know, from experience, that this world is sick and twisted and has fallen to, well, pardon my language, shit.
I know that in many areas of the world, young girls are forced into sex by older, brutal men. That those girls usually become pregnant, and that they are too young to have babies so therefor tear themselves and getting infected and die. All by the age of 16, 17. I know that sick men think that forced sex is exciting, and gets them off.
What makes me so upset though, is that these men getting off on rape are encouraging rapists to continue raping, and to post videos of it online. What makes me want to vomit is that these videos that I can't even watch 10 seconds of without bursting into tears knowing that that is a human being that is being treated worse than most animals- that men are watching them and jacking off to it. They are enjoying it.
I strive, on a daily basis to be peaceful and loving, to never want violence for anyone. But I've always had a weakness- the men involved in rape of any kind. In any state of mind, I would want those men to suffer. Now I've added another group of men to the mix- men who get off to watching rape. I bet all those men went to see Book of Eli for that one scene, even though Eli saves Solara.
I've seen, with my own eyes things that no one should ever have to see. And I know many have seen much worse. But never have I been so upset and angered by something as I have by this. I'm not saying ban porn, though let's face it, I'm not a fan. But consensual is something different. Even the fantasy rape porn- it's obviously fake. There are real sickos out there posting their rapings as videos for other sickos to jack off to. Those men need to be arrested and thrown in jail for the rest of their lives- at least. Rape is not a joke, nor has it ever been or will ever be.
Aside from my ranting, I figured I should share some facts. Disclaimer: there aren't true statistics about rape, because most rapes aren't reported.
Approximately 302,091 women are raped a year, in the United States. But that doesn't include "sexual assault". Rape is considered the completed or attempted act of sexual penetration. But does not include forced anal or oral sex. And we aren't even talking about statutory rape. Statutory rape is when any person over 18 has unconsented intercourse with anyone under 18. As the rapist gets older and the victim gets younger, the laws get more harsh.
Did you know that there has been a large increase in welfare over the last 25 years, and that the main cause is believed to be pregnancies caused by statutory rape? In fact, the drain on the country's resources because of it has caused a new federal welfare law urging all states and attorney generals to enforce statutory rape laws better. And yet so many people still get away with it. Mostly because victims are too traumatized or afraid to speak out.
If you or anyone you know have may have ever been in a situation where you were sexually abused or raped, get help. Among the myriad of online resources is
RAINN, Rape, Abuse and Incest National Network. They have counselors you can talk to, and a support network.
Rape is not something you can get past and move on from. It's a traumatic experience that sticks with you forever.
Even after using facts to calm my mind, I'm still upset. There needs to be some way to identify all these rapists in these videos so we can seek justice. It's disgusting. I don't even know how those people can live with themselves.
